{"id":901,"date":"2020-01-20T10:31:10","date_gmt":"2020-01-20T10:31:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/new.vereinverfolgt.ch\/?p=901"},"modified":"2022-04-10T04:45:07","modified_gmt":"2022-04-10T04:45:07","slug":"ruhum-artik-sad-oldu-baba","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/vereinverfolgt.ch\/?p=901","title":{"rendered":"Ruhum Art\u0131k \u015ead Oldu Baba"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/vereinverfolgt.ch\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/03\/Baba-2.wav\"><\/audio><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Selamlar olsun sana baba!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nas\u0131ls\u0131n? Zindanda m\u0131s\u0131n h\u00e2l\u00e2<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Senin gibi yi\u011fit amcalar\u0131mla?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Durumlar nas\u0131l orada?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hastal\u0131k, salg\u0131n derken,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yang\u0131n yeriydi heryer&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>En son b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok \u00e7ektirdiler bize baba.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Anama, bac\u0131ma, en \u00e7ok da bana\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne tedavime imkan verdiler<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne de sana doyabildim baba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m birg\u00fcn yine,&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok ihtiyac\u0131m vard\u0131 sana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n telefonla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir \u00fcmit; \u201eGel\u201c demi\u015ftim;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eGelemiyorum yavrum, gelemiyorum.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eB\u0131rakm\u0131yorlar ne yapay\u0131m? \u201e<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00f6zlerin h\u00e2l\u00e2 kula\u011f\u0131mda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sahi neden gelemiyordun baba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Niye b\u0131rakm\u0131yorlard\u0131 anlatsana\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n onlara?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Vard\u0131n, sa\u011fd\u0131n ama<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yetim duygusunu tatt\u0131rd\u0131lar bana<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ben ad\u0131m ad\u0131m topra\u011fa giderken,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onlar\u0131n vicdan\u0131 \u00e7oktan \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Toprakla, \u00e7amurla belki de betonla\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne g\u00fcnlerdi&nbsp; de\u011fil mi baba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok \u015fahit&nbsp; olamad\u0131n ama<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annem anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Alt\u0131mda sedyeyle, kolumda serumla,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bazen&nbsp; tekerlekli sandalyede<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bazen anac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kollar\u0131nda&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bazen de annesiz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m,&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ileli tedavi yollar\u0131nda.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00e2h havaliman\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00e2h hastanede odalar\u0131nda&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00e2h&nbsp; sosyal medyada\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pinpon topu olmu\u015ftum<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Vicdan(s\u0131z)lar\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu kadar a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ben yava\u015f yava\u015f g\u00fc\u00e7ten d\u00fc\u015ferken&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annem aslanlar gibi dik durdu baba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Binlerce sevenimiz ve en \u00e7ok da Natali dostuyla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok severdim onu, \u201eKara Efem\u201c derdi bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Herkes \u00e7ok \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131&nbsp; baba&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evl\u00e2d\u0131 oldum herkesin bir anda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Derdim dert oldu onlara<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama derdimiz&nbsp; ula\u015fmad\u0131&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Baz\u0131&nbsp; k\u00f6r, sa\u011f\u0131r, dilsiz makamlara!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Son gecemdi \u015fu f\u00e2ni d\u00fcnyada\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7acak derman\u0131m olmasa da,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bekledim g\u00f6nl\u00fcm fikrim hep kap\u0131da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama gelemedin, nasip olmad\u0131 baba\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sensiz ge\u00e7irdim son gecemi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00f6r olas\u0131&nbsp; hastane odas\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yumdum sonra g\u00f6zlerimi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yoramayacakt\u0131 beni art\u0131k d\u00fcnya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y\u0131kad\u0131lar naa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kirli olan bedenim mi, yoksa;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gusle muhta\u00e7 kalpler mi acaba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gittik sonra kabristana,&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nihayet g\u00f6rd\u00fcm seni orada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u0131ralanm\u0131\u015f tam on iki jandarmayla!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne i\u015fleri vard\u0131 etraf\u0131nda?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hi\u00e7 anlam veremedim baba\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ellerine bakt\u0131m sonra,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kelep\u00e7e takm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 onlara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kelep\u00e7eler de\u011fdi topra\u011f\u0131ma\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onlarla beraber a\u00e7t\u0131n ellerini semaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki ah ettin sebep olanlara,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki de bir F\u00e2tiha okudun ruhuma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sen sar\u0131lamad\u0131n ama<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ben \u00e7ok sar\u0131ld\u0131m&nbsp; sana baba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yasak yoktu, g\u00f6ren yoktu orada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sen hi\u00e7 farketmedin ama<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ruhum seninleydi baba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&nbsp;Uzun uzun bakt\u0131m sana<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sildim usulca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Koklad\u0131m, \u00f6pt\u00fcm seni doya doya.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sen gidene kadar ruhum kald\u0131 yan\u0131nda,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fcnyadaki son bulu\u015fmam\u0131zda.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Selam s\u00f6yle herkese baba!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Anama, bac\u0131ma, sevenlere, dostlara\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kimse \u00fcz\u00fclmesin&nbsp; asla!&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sen de art\u0131k hi\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fclme baba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bulu\u015furuz in\u015fallah yine&nbsp; burada\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cennet diyorlar ad\u0131na,&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck&nbsp; var ne zul\u00fcm ne de tasa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m bitti sonunda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m da var art\u0131k,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerim \u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131yor&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>T\u00fcylenen ka\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130nci gibi di\u015flerimle&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tebess\u00fcm ediyorum sana\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fcnyay\u0131 zehir ettiler ama<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ruhum art\u0131k \u015f\u00e2d oldu baba!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Azra Azer<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Selamlar olsun sana baba! Nas\u0131ls\u0131n? Zindanda m\u0131s\u0131n h\u00e2l\u00e2 Senin gibi yi\u011fit amcalar\u0131mla? Durumlar nas\u0131l orada? Hastal\u0131k, salg\u0131n derken, Yang\u0131n yeriydi heryer&nbsp; En son b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda. \u00c7ok \u00e7ektirdiler bize baba.&nbsp; Anama, bac\u0131ma, en \u00e7ok da bana\u2026 Ne tedavime imkan verdiler Ne de sana doyabildim baba. A\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m birg\u00fcn yine,&nbsp; \u00c7ok ihtiyac\u0131m vard\u0131 sana. Ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n telefonla. 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